There are days when this girl does lots and lots of talking. She is the center of attraction. Her spontaneity and witty one liners amaze everyone around. They are just mesmerized with this girl, who seems to have appeared only to entertain and engage the people around her. She is full of liveliness...at that moment, no one can think in the wildest dreams that she is broken inside. Her soul is starving, yet she ignores herself to only make everyone around laugh and laugh and laugh!
Well, then there are long spells of days, when this lovely girl is struggling through every moment of her day. She cannot even meet an eye... looking into any face makes her break down and burst into tears. She was told that crying in public is very shameful, if she is suffering, she should brave it somehow, but never cry in public. She avoids crowds, stay away from any human interaction.
Her condition is similar to a shiny, good looking apple, which is rotten inside. But such a fruit if left for long, the rottenness spreads to the outer skin as well. As days pass by, she finds it harder and harder to keep the inner suffering from surfacing out.
"I am fine"...."I am doing good, thank you. How are you doing?" She says this to her colleagues at work, but she doesn't feel the same way. The pleasantries are exchanged, however, she feels unpleasant with every interaction. Even talking to self is daunting feeling.
What's up with this girl? What is she undergoing? Why is no one around able to notice her emptiness?
My heart goes out to her, but looks like she is not open to share. She is scared of something, I don't know what. She is truly very brave, she needs to hold on to herself for a bit more maybe.....or maybe she will lose it all. Sigh!
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